i don't know what came first, the social isolation, or the interest in programming. either way, both have led to the total deterioration of my mental health... and that's how this project was born.
hey, welcome to my blog. i started this project as a way for me to have a space where i can just be creative with no limits or expectations. sometimes i build new web pages for this site. sometimes i just ramble. it's all just for fun. i find that when i am regularly being creative and making things just for the sake of it, my mental health really improves. so this blog is like a safe haven for me. it's a very healthy habit. and it keeps my mind off things.
that being said - what is an improvement to my mental health, can still be something you consider really bad. i'm not trying to be edgy on purpose, but i am seriously mentally ill. and i am perpetually a work in progress. i have more better days now, and i do try to stay positive and well, but i can still get super dark seemingly out of nowhere, so i don't want anyone to be caught too off guard. someday, my goal is to overcome my past and present mistakes and become someone good, someone who you don't need to be warned about. but, for now, i still come with a trigger warning.
so, i can't promise the quality of what content you'll find on here, because my intention here is only to make things, not necessarily to make things well. plus, the things that come out of my head can be not great. like i said, trigger warning. but who knows? maybe you'll find something you like. feel free to look around :]
calm - this is a page i made for when i'm having panic attacks. i have its link bookmarked in my phone. anywhere i have internet, i have a little pre-prepared package of instant, no-thinking-required help to calm down. i highly recommend building your own calm page for exactly this purpose, especially if you're like me and too lazy to put together a physical box of coping tools and carry it around with you or always have it nearby. or if you don't feel like making one, you can use mine.
code - this is where i write about programming and post my code. or i will, once i finally get over myself and make a github. fuck. why is github so scary to jump into??
cool - i'm honestly not sure what i'm gonna post here yet. but i'll figure something out that lives up to the label. eventually.
and i also have an about me page, if you're curious about that kind of thing:
here are some things i might want to add to this blog but haven't yet, in case i'm seeing this and bored:
todo: